[asthedolphinswims]

2011-10-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

i think a subway sandwich and a cup of gongcha makes a perfect match! :)

and i just have to say it again. and again.

2011-06-29T20:28:00.001+08:00

self reminder, my job is not to make everyone happy.
i dont know why i always ended up with the more difficult job than any other people. or maybe the problem lies in me. i don't know, not the first time, second time but third!

oh well hakuna matata, i'm sure it's for the better me. i sure hope.
love yourself more. a lil more.
love. yourself.
prioritize.

2011-06-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

because you are a friend that matters a lot to me. because no one knows me like you do. because no one sees certain things eye-to-eye with me like you do. because we still care, that we'll continue to be great pretenders.

i wish someday, we will speak about the unspoken. 10 years. 20 years.someday.

This Little Light of Mine

2011-02-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

It was really awesome that Glee did this song. A song I started singing since primary school days until today, during occasional guiding events; a heart warming song that brings back good old memories of girl guiding days.

And I shall dedicate this to all my guiding sisters and friends out there!
Let the little light in you shine! :)

eat pray love

2011-02-10T23:50:00.006+08:00

i guess part of growing up allows you to see things with better clarity. people get into a relationship with many different reasons, and i am in no position to say what is right or wrong. i can only choose for myself, how i want to live my life - although at some point in time i wonder if i've made the right decision for myself. if given another choice, i will still choose to fall the way i did, because to love is not to own and when things are not turning out the way you thought it should, that is when you learn and get to know yourself better. i will never know how much i could love, if not for you. but it wasn't easy.

a week back, i was a little disappointed knowing that things will never be the same anymore. it wasn't as heartbreaking as it was the last time, just a slight cut on my previous wound. today, as I watched the enlightening piece, "eat pray love" I kind of thought perhaps it was time for me to move on for real.

when i miss you, when i think of you, i'll send you love and light, and then drop it.
-eat,pray,love-

perhaps someday, i will write a book too. and when that day comes, i will give credit to this author, mr wong chai kee. he is no god of the authors, but he did inspire me in some ways and that matters. he was the first author (of the books that I have read) that I have met.

the most heartwarming part about the meeting was when my blog post about his book was featured during one of his sessions on writing a memoir. I walked to him after his talk, complimenting his work and own up to the blog post; we were both overwhelm with joy and surprises. and by the way,the lady sitting next to me throughout the talk was his wife and she was from penang! what a pleasant surprise isn't it! :)

his message to the people who wants to write, people who wants to write a memoir, was just to write, because only you know your story and everyone has a story worth sharing.

and i will write to elizabeth gilbert to tell her that durian does not taste like dirty feet at all, NEVER! durian is LOVE! :)

2011-01-27T18:23:00.002+08:00

That lil laugh that I needed for the day.

The event scheduled for tomorrow is a team-building event at the water sports centre.

Mr A : I think I want to bring my porn-show along, but I have no time to watch my porn-show.
Ms B : Huh??? Why you want to bring porn-show tomorrow?
Mr A : So I wont get wet la!
Ms C : You'll get wet anyways!
Ms B : Wait, what did you say again? Watch your porn show?
Mr A : What porn show? PONCHO la! WASH my PONCHO! What are you thinking??

Ms B : .....

2010-11-26T00:24:00.007+08:00

it feels kind of peaceful tonight (before mr cough decides to break the peace and announce his existence), spending time with i, me & myself.

sometimes solitude is bliss. i simply love spending time in this lil cosy room of mine reading on my bed, listening to westlife with the sound of the pouring rain in the background, my window wide open inviting the cool breeze into the room, with a good view of the sky and the neighbourhood from the ninth floor.

of late, i have been enjoying the company of myself, it was good to feel more connected to myself. guess the transition was all for the better, i am kind of glad afterall the turmoil, i made the decision to let certain things go and move on; true to the saying, you'll never know until you try.

two months into my new job, there's good and bad but i guess i have nothing to complain about because it has been a fulfilling one thus far. things are slowly falling into shape, and i am kind of excited about the projects that i am working on, things related to renewables that i've always wanted to do! power generation, electric vehicle, solar power, renewable energy; all for the green cause! =)

to top it up, i think that my lady-chem-engineer-manager is cool cause she goes into the meeting with a bunch of sexist male engineers and kick asses! oh well, it's afterall a male dominating industry!

was at the building of robert bosch today for a visit, and ended up at their gallery. and guess what, i was all excited when i saw their display of tools! things that i was familiar with once upon a time. felt as if i met my long lost friends; the cordless drill, the circular saw, jig saw and reciprocating saw! secretly deep inside, it feels good knowing i could handle these tools. some instances, i really wonder if i have more testosterones in me.

and throughout this period of self-contemplating, it is clearer to me now what that i want and not. i dont know who-how-when-what-where things are gonna bring me to, but i guess i will just have to remind myself, what life should be all about and keep going.

peace out...

2010-10-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

i dont even know much about her until the day she passed away, but i teared up reading the eulogies written for her. i guess, the same applies to many; we simply can relate to the emotions because it's all about love.

"love is the only rational act. love wins, love always win."
- Tuesdays with Morrie-

2010-09-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

today, for the first time in my life i helped granny to shower and i thought it's kind of beautiful. it was all heart warming thoughts, with more and more reflections about life.

now that i am readin 'Tuesdays with Morrie', i cant help but to relate to all the small lil things mentioned in the book.

efficiency

2010-07-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

efficiency is when I send an email to dad who is at work about the good news (when I am in the office), and mum calling minutes after from her office when I was eating lunch asking about it! i simply love how technology is keeping us so connected despite not being near to one another!

for some reasons, my parents never stop impressing me with their ability to keep up with technology! not to say they are exactly tech savvy, but bit by bit, they are simply picking up; like how mum is now playing FB games that I dont and start discussing about the games with MY friends and how dad is starting to send me forwarded mails and sending me SMSs with funky short forms. simple stuff that makes me :)

on a separate note, deep down i am simply proud with the fact how i kept my [i] record unbroken thus far! it's awesome! :)

a good cry

2010-06-11T23:50:00.010+08:00

it has been a long while.
simply because all the lil things in life are coming to haunt me altogether at once,i am incapable of anything else other than to allow the droplets flow from my tired eyes.

i was roaming around aimlessly, hoping that my guardian angel would appear and tell me what i should do next. am simply not getting anything right at the moment. a good cry was all i ever needed at that moment and yet again this time round, in the bus.

perhaps it is the many soap operas i've watched ever since my childhood days, it felt good to just look out from the moving bus, with some sad songs playing at the background, and just let it flow.

i guess the tears really did water my soul.
today, i really felt so much better.
i.just.have.to.deal.with.it.
sometimes, a good cry is all you need.

canon-in-d simply brings peace.
as always.

Fearless

2010-02-21T23:46:00.001+08:00

simply the song...

We're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly makin' me want you

So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it

Pixelated

2010-01-17T23:42:00.001+08:00

First saw their performance during the 2009 World Aids Day event and this particular song really caught my attention.

Pixelated by Jack & Rai.
[specially dedicated to the World Aids Day 2009, with the message that we should all try to see things with clarity and understanding, and not with pixelated eyes. Sometimes, it's just a matter of perspective, but it does matters when it affects your thoughts, your feelings, your decisions that may directly or indirectly affect the people around you.]

p/s: this was filmed merely with a DSLR!

2009-12-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all the well wishes...

but there's nothing that i want to remember about this very day.

it has been a year since...
i wish by next year, i will stop counting...

and i wish upon a star...

somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue...

where the dreams that you dare to dream...
really do come true...

Merry Christmas.2009.

2009-12-25T03:31:00.003+08:00

Looking back, 3 Christmas Eves – Same place, date & time – Some familiar faces, some new ones: It’s amazing how some things have changed over the years yet some still remained the way it was. Guess time just can’t erase a feeling this strong. It would be great if the people who once used to be around would be here today, to reminisce the good ole days!

Regardless, I really miss singing in the choir, especially when it comes to caroling because it simply gives me joy singing and listening to it as well!

Merry Christmas!

Even When She Forgot My Name

2009-09-06T16:18:00.008+08:00

It has been awhile since I last read a book [textbooks are not counted]. Few days back, I saw this book on the shelf at Select Books, picked it up, read the synopsis and I knew, I have to read this one. So, I headed to the library and was glad that the book was available.

And true to what my heart says, it was a well written book about a son's recollection of his younger days [growing up in a typical Chinese family that I can relate to] and his mother's life in a world constricted by Alzheimer. It finished the book, and then headed to the bookstore, ended up buying one for myself - for it was a really good book that I think I should own.

It got me drenched in tears when I was finishing the final bit of the book in the bus. For a moment, the lady who was sitting next to me must be wondering what was wrong with me.

The first thing that came into my mind was dad and my paternal grandma. I think dad will find this a good read because it spells out a lot about how much he loves grandma and the family, how proud he was about grandma being such a selfless lady who would always put the family first, how he would tell us so much about grandma and the few words of wisdom he would usually share with us again and again.

It reminded me so much about my paternal grandma, and her final days although she didn't exactly suffer from Alzheimer. Reminded me a lot about the family, my younger days; a book with experiences that I can really relate to.

A snippet from the book:

"What's my name?" I said. She paused.
Her lips quivered: cornered, the answer had escaped.

"Do I need to say your name?" Worry had left her brow. Silence followed, seconds that felt like minutes. " I'm your mother," she said. "You're my son. Isn't that enough?"

Unwilling to admit she forgot my name, she blamed me for it. I recalled talking back to her as a teenager, and getting a stern retort. "Don't you ever forget," she said, pointing below her bowels. "I pass you out from down here."

Her back against the wall, she changed the script. It was her stage. A few minutes later, she turned toward me, her eyes soft and tender,"Your name is in my heart," she said. "That's the important thing. Other things don't matter."

Definitely a recommended read especially when it comes to Asian titles, buzz me for the book if you're interested! The pleasure is all mine to share it! =)

Even When She Forgot My Name by Wong Chai Kee.
love, life and my mother's alzheimer's

The Tears of Life

2009-07-10T23:50:00.004+08:00

As she anticipated the day,
Looked forward to some random remarks made,
It was all broken; yet another empty promise.
She hates it when people don’t keep to their words.
When people give hope and shatter it in seconds.
When people say sorry and don’t even mean it.
When reality hits her that this is all it is worth.

Make no promises and nothing will be broken.
She should be happy today,
For it was the tears of life.

The tears of sorrow…
The tears of joy…

dear me, congratulations! you've finally completed the run.

with my mortarboard, i say "thank you & goodbye NUS"...

2009-07-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

To the great lady who have been part and parcel of all my life…
Mum, Happy Birthday!!

the dark knight

2009-07-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

hero or silent guardian?
if you know me well enough, you will know my choice...

i may not be your hero, but i will always be your silent guardian...

Poker Face

2009-07-03T12:13:00.004+08:00

check out daughtry's cover of Poker Face!
simply impressive...

The Rag Story...

2009-06-30T12:46:00.006+08:00

I was really all excited when I saw the frame for rag and...
AND THE FREAKING HYDRAULICS!!!

Two years ago, we spoke about hydraulics, but in the end we resorted to the old school yet practical technology called the manual manpower. It's great knowing that two years later this is no longer just a talk, it was feasible! It gives me the same goosebumps I had when we lifted up the shuttle frame for the very first time at the car park - two years back. I was all excited that I started texting vijay liew and elfie about this discovery. I really can't wait to see it working! =)

Rag, I once said is like a complicated love-hate relationship…
No words could perfectly describe what it is all about…
Until...you be part of it and feel it for real…
The Rag Story...

2009-06-24T15:25:00.001+08:00

Way Back into Love, one of my favourites! I can’t help looping this song after Berenice mentioned about it yesterday. And as I was looking at the lyrics of this song, I found something interesting. It’s funny how the website said that the mandarin version of the song is sung by Victor and Fish Leung. Although, they are Chinese singers but after all it is still an English song! Which part of it is Mandarin I wonder... But anyways, the original version of the song is still the better one!

Am back in Penang since last Saturday. The one week in Gold Coast and Brisbane was awesome with Uncle Ong and Aunty Libbie’s company (dad’s bestest buddy who migrated to Australia many years ago.)! Will update about my trip soon! All I can say for now is, it is truly a surfer’s paradise! The beaches are simply just too beautiful – an ultimate place for a beach getaway! Just that the water is way too cold – I lasted less than 10 minutes in the water…

Have been feeling lethargic and tired for the past few days, with signs of flu and symptoms of H1N1. I was quite worried and I ended up reading up more and more regarding the flu. Cough, Sore Throat, Body aches, Chest Pain – All checked… Just hoping I will recover soon, I take back my words… No H1N1 please… I will feel damn guilty for all the people I have been in contact with…

And in the process of ‘resting’ I just finished watching one TVB series, Rosy Business… I just love how Wayne Lai says人生有多少个十年？最重要活得痛快!
Statistics says that an average man will have 8.
So, how many 10-years do you think you will have?

One of man’s biggest uncertainties in life there…

2009-06-10T08:04:00.004+08:00

Good morning world!
Am up incredibly early today, staring at the bright blue sky - I smiled.
It was a great day yesterday, and I look forward to yet another.
PBA Holdings' AGM - my first corporate AGM experience, interesting indeed seeing how they battle with words, plus the fact that I get to witness our dear Chief Minister LimGuanEng in action-impressed, his charisma shines when he talks - made me look forward to what more he can offer, he reminded me of you.

The sound of the waves and the smell of the sea, it feels like home. Seeing my dad and my cousins out in the see reminds me of my younger years, how dad used to bring us to the beach, all the splashing water and running around. Seeing dad do his butterfly makes me feel like mastering the stroke, I can barely complete one stroke, really...I think it is tough, but I will try...

And that small lil durian serving jus made my day, just that lil is enough (although I am looking forward for more, haha!)...
=)

This line was jus running in my head since I saw it in my book:
The eyes are the window to ones soul...

I love how the eyes meet...
It is all coming back to me...
If you could tell me just a lil more...
A lil more than meets the eye...
I will be lying if I said it didnt matter anymore...
I will be lying if I said I wasn't thinking of you...
I once said, if I could take you away, I would...

Good day all!
Am finally heading for Night At The Museum 2 in awhile!

2009-05-29T14:52:00.000+08:00

I must admit, this is so much more stressful than I expected.
2.50 pm – 10 minutes before the official time for the release of my final semester’s results… gulp…

What time should I check? I am really scared!
It has never been sooo scary, really...
HOW? I don’t know…
Can somebody perhaps help me check??
Honestly nervous…
Scary shit…

2009-05-22T08:34:00.002+08:00

am back in sg after a week of break back home and i freaking lost my favourite fossil watch.just tell me i misplaced it at home please? sigh, lady luck is just not with me lately considering all the happenings. this feeling of being a lil lost, not knowing whats next is getting a lil way stressful than i expected, that includes the whole process of house and job hunting.

looking at the depleting figures on my bank book is making things worst, with so many other plans in my head that says no-money-no-talk.

oh well, good morning world! its 8 am, i just headed to 7-eleven, met this so called new friend i made two weeks ago, the lady cashier, spoke a lil and one of my favourite song was on air! first song of the day, so it better be my day!
nusjobsconnect happening in a few hours time, hoping to get something out of it although it doesnt seem very positive, but well, got to give it a try somehow i guess...

wish me luck and good day all!

2009-05-16T03:41:00.005+08:00

What? FYP Report? I thought you graduated?

0359 am: Me camping in the EW room finishing the final bit of my finalyearproject report before I REALLY FOR REAL OFFICIALLY END my uni days...Oh well, it was quite a fun and interesting experience having to edit my report, considering the fact that most of my friends are somewhere enjoying their holidays, some enjoying good Japanese food in Japan, some went up north to the beautiful island in Thailand to see corals – not to bad for me who is looping Love Story meets Viva La Vida in this interesting cosmopolitan island called Singapore. OWHHH, how interesting life is but i must say, it is a very nice arrangement - simply a nice piece of music. Plus the fact that I watched Star Trek twice in 4 days; indeed an awesome show that is worth a second watch! Am personally not a Star Trek fan, but the movie makes me feel like watching the past series…

Quoted from StarTrek: "You've always had a hard time finding your place in this world, haven't you? Never knowing your true worth. You can settle for less in ordinary life, or do you feel like you were meant for something better? Something special."

Gimme one hour, I will whack that report down, pack my bag, leave this place and head home! For now,enjoy! Love Story meets Viva La Vida!

He’s never coming back… She’s about to lose hope
And all of a sudden, he comes back…
By 7 year old Sarah, simple and sweet =)

07th May 2009: The Day

2009-05-07T18:58:00.007+08:00

0000 The countdown continues to the final paper in NUS (15 hours)
0027 Time to feed the brain: headed to the 'back' with the B3 babes (Pucca & Tan) for a pair of chicken wing. Wonder when will be my last trip there before I leave hall.

0050 Happy! And the intensive final lap of mugging continued throughout the night, with intervals by FB-ing.
0600 Half-an-hour super power nap to rest the brain.
0700 Breakfast!
0830 Time to 'chiong' to the library for RBR Book for the last time.
0900 Sat on my 'fengshui' seat, staring at the nearly empty library. Somehow reminded me of my exams in first year when I ended damn late too, and bumping into mr liew in the library! Haha, that was 4 years ago! Continued with the mugging with my other all-time-fav-study-buddies in the library: Shaun and Welly!
1030 Time for caffeine fix! Guess what, before NUS I an a non-coffee drinker. Seriously, cause I had a bad first experience with coffee.

1230 Time to leave for the last paper of my undergraduate life.
1300 And the final battle officially starts
1500 And it ended, finally officially

1530 Papers collected, everyone started buzzing one another, complaining how difficult the paper was, and how much crap they have written (that happens everytime anyways, and yet people still do very well - irritating...)

1540 After all the byebyes, headed to the library to return RBR for the last time too!
1600 Lunch at The Deck!
1630 Back in hall, feeling a lil lost wondering what's next...
1635 The sleep engine started, first time in the history of my post-exam experience that I can actually sleep right after a paper. Such is the power of my final paper in NUS.

2009-05-03T13:46:00.012+08:00

Things in life we always take for granted

Being human, we always tend to take things closest to us for granted for we assume they will always be there; people close to us- family and friends, the sunrise, the bright blue sky, the sound of wave - all the small little things among others. I dare not say I don't, for I am imperfect. Am just another being that tend to make mistakes often made my beings, but I dare say at the very least I tried to not to take people around me for granted. Close your eyes, ask yourself. Have you?

On a side note, thank you for trying, but some things are best left the way it is. Heavy heart it seems, but it really doesn’t matter anymore. Till I see you after the exams, take care.

I dreamt about grandma and I really miss her. I wonder how is she doing, if only I can ask. Your birthday is coming soon granny! Time really flies, it will soon be 7 months since you left but it feels like yesterday when I last spoke to you. We all miss you!

Yesterday was quite a night spent catching up with some close friends despite the initial plan to spend my time with my important date, my polymer textbook. Yes friends, I finally managed to disabled the autoplay on the playlist. To miss B, I am a proud friend of you for I have seen how hard you fought for what you believed in. It will soon be over and things will be alright, just remember that we will always be there if you need us! And my old old friend, OWP! Thanks for entertaining me with the story of your first love. Just remember don’t break more hearts!
This is for you!

All at once by The Fray
sometimes...
we’d never know what's wrong without the pain...
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Reading this makes my day http://wise-one.blogspot.com/
Updates on Sage’s recovery from the liver transplant. This Christmas boy and his uncle, Kelvin (opps!) sure did inspire me in some ways.

And now, Macs breakfast and polymers for the day!
Good SUNday all!

2009-05-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

It’s a weird kind of connection I felt between us all
For there is one very reason why we are related
That I wish I could go to you, give you a hug
And say, I know how it feels
For I really know, for I was once like you

I don’t really understand how or why
I could see through it all
Or should I say given the ‘opportunity’ to
One after another, at least a few of them
I feel for you my dear friends

You lucky piece of shit
You just don’t know
And I guess you’ll never

2009-05-01T10:21:00.002+08:00

dearest doctor, just certify me swineflu-positive and exempt me from exams will you?
pills and notes are just immiscible no matter how hard i tried, they are making me frustrated. damn, the doctor didn't tell me that.

this is really making me crazy.
mr flu is now back in action.
can you just leave me alone until 7th may, please?
i'll give you anything you want after that.
i promise.

2009-04-17T02:25:00.002+08:00

tired, sleepy and sick... and am so frustrated that mr cough just wont go away and i still cant get my sleep after trying for the past 2 hours... and i'm getting really hungry... and i can only eat stuff that are friendly to my throat, which leaves me to not much choice...

My last assignment is NUS was due today...
And it was really the last one, no more sleepless nights until the studying-mania kick in... 3 modules officially down, 3 more to go...
And i thought i should freaking go out tonight and perhaps get a good night rest after. But mr cough doesnt seem to be friendly at all... No goin out, no partying... and NO SLEEP TOO! What do you want from me???
Arghhh....

And so people says, its all over! No more assignments, no more projects!Happy isnt exactly the write word to describe how I felt I guess,more like a bittersweet symphony - I started to feel nostalgic. This 4-years-run has been an amazing one, full of both good and bad times that I will definitely miss and treasure.

Two more weeks before it officially ends...
I will definitely makesure I end it well... =)

now back to my attempt to fight mr cough and get some sleep...

2009-04-05T13:31:00.007+08:00

As much as I wanted to be home this very weekend, all the piling project deadlines won the battle. I miss home, and I thought I can make it back in time for QingMing yesterday morning. I miss granny, really do. I just hope I can find sometime soon enough to make a trip home before reading week starts. Take care all! :)

Had a long but fruitful day yesterday; Two project meetings back to back from 9 am till 5 pm.Woohoo! And a good break after that too! Visited Kelvin and his nephew in the hospital after that. The surgery for liver transplant was this morning, and I hope all went well.

The 3-year-old is such an adorable boy, I feel for him for having to go through such pain at such a young age. Am proud of you my friend, for you will be making all the difference in this boy’s life! He will soon be able to eat ice cream!

Seeing the hope of a mother, the patience of the father, the love from people around him, there is indeed so much more to life, so much. I will say a lil prayer for you, definitely will.

I had good stuff to fill up my stomach soon after that too!
And a good walk by the seaside to wrap-up the day…
Thanks dearest roomie for the ride and the good food!

Food for thought of the day:
Have you done enough to make a difference in your life and others? What is it about making a difference? It is really not about being a super hero or about donating a big amount of money. It’s all the small lil things, small lil gesture that comes with great love that counts. Even a simple smile will make all the difference. Reach out, touch more hearts… :)

Listening to: Angel in Disguise by Corinne May

2009-04-03T02:09:00.005+08:00

Thank god I read the news on time to keep myself updated that the PM transition in Malaysia is about to start. I mean, how could I miss such a big news right? Just that I haven’t got time to keep myself updated with news. I know its bad, but I will try to make it an effort. And so, the 6th Prime Minister of Malaysia will be sworn in later today at 10.00am. Some people says the new chapter of Malaysia is about to start. Will it be new afterall? Tough times ahead for the new PM, will he make it or break it? Definitely hoping for the better, keeping my fingers crossed.(will ISA detain me for writing this?)

It’s really time to move on. For the past is over, and all we can do is to look forward and aim and hope for better things. For greater things in life. Life is short, really…

You are stronger than you think you are.
You are.

Thank god for music, chocolates, caffeine and strawberry-banana milkshake...
It keeps me sane... :)

Listening to: Change by Taylor Swift

2009-04-01T00:46:00.002+08:00

Singapore's Top Ten Favourite Brands 2009

This is interesting to know...
Singapore's Most Favourite Brand in 2009 is...
Drumroll.........COLGATE!

List Extracted from MARKETING-interactive.com
http://www.marketing-interactive.com/news/11875

Singapore's Top Ten Favourite Brands 2009
1. Colgate
2. Google
3. StarHub
4. NTUC Fairprice
5. Sony
6. SingTel
7. Yahoo
8. Straits Times
9. 7Eleven
10. Nippon Paint

2009-03-31T01:11:00.003+08:00

some small lil coincidences does make my day...
sometimes it happened too often that it makes me start thinking....
which is bad bad....
whatever it is, i truly madly deeply hate the silence...
guess we are all jus so tired...

school work is peaking up like mad...
one hour sleep yesterday.... and i guess today too....
it feels like shit...
so much to be done... so lil time left...
and i truly madly deeply misses home...

design report which was due yesterday...
drugs poster which is due today that I was just about to start on...
new venture's class assessment today
i wonder how...

the finally final FYP poster

2009-03-13T19:41:00.005+08:00

My Finally Final FYP Poster! Those were the sleepless nights!

Me and Zhiquan at My Poster Corner!

The Chem Eng Group doing CBS ( Control Systems) Projects
(honestly am a little intimidated by the female:male ratio)

2009-03-06T23:56:00.004+08:00

do it with your heart...
and you will eventually get it right...

an eventful week or a hell week, you call it...
and am glad friday is here!
the past week has been crazily crazy, but am glad to say I survived it!
two midterms,project meetings and datelines...
choir practices...DP prep
some unwritten obligations...
ilead presentation, prep for fyp moderation, NEC DND, FQ boardgame session in hall!

indeed i did wonder if i will pull it off...
especially the ilead presentation, fyp poster and the boardgame session - which ALL happened today!

but it all went well to my surprises...
especially the FQ boardgame session when i was still hunting around for people at 5 plus to be there... at a point of time, i was kind of pissed having to do this, for i wonder...was it what i had to do in the first place... NO?!?
and whatever happened to all who promised to help?
no, not helping either...
well, it was an unwritten obligation...
but what made my day was seeing how some people who cared actually bother to ask, help and support... thanks peeps!
somehow, everything jus falls into place...
all i can say is, do it with your heart...
and it will eventually turn out fine!

and I hope you survived the week well too!
kind of irritating sometimes to see the sulking face of yours around...
but i guess its just you being you...

Song of the week: Plain White T's 1,2,3,4...
a very sweet song with a sweet MV too!
enjoy~!

2009-03-01T23:21:00.003+08:00

my new found love...

after the whole week of midterm break, i finally had a real break!
woohooooooooooo!
huiying was out in the sea to windsurf and she really really had a great time...
finally completed level 1 after wanting to do it since forever!
it has been nearly 3 years since i last went to east coast (for sea sports camp i think!), and it feels good to be there...
it reminded me abit about home, where i used to spend my weekends at when i was younger at the swimming club with dad,mum,sister and cousins...

other than the rain and lightning that came towards later of the day...
it was all good! the sun and the sea...
the staring into the clear blue sky, listening to the waves...

yes my dear new found love...
i will spend more time with you...
i definitely will!

why windsurfing?
firstly,this waterlover cant help but to fall deeper in love with the sea and seasports of course! well, its also abit about the nature of windsurfing that i really like...
challenging, very dependent on weather condition, requiring the person to be really adaptable according to changes in condition...
risky? yes, and well...exactly for a risktaker like me who always follows my heart...
requires alot of dedication to master it...
a lil technical to a certain extend to understand the physics behind windsurfing...
plus i think it looks really cool to be able to surf!
(not that i can do it yet, it looks quite unglam falling from trying to sail or surf...)

aspiring windsurfer-to-be!

2009-02-28T05:11:00.008+08:00

It has been awhile and the bad habit of writing emo stuff is coming back. I cant help it, it is all coming back to me now that I am starting to lose track of myself. Honestly, sometimes I really feel like chopping you into pieces for bringing out all these ugly sides of me.

With expectations, come disappointments and so when some people just don’t make it up to my expectation, I get real disappointed. I get real frustrated when people that matters just don’t give a damn about things I care about. I am learning my way, to think and make decisions with an open heart. I am trying…

Action speaks louder than words. Oh well, easier said than done.
Everyone talks about it but how many actually mean their words, useless piece of shit!

By the way, lets clap for the biggest fool on earth!
Wake up your idea you, it's time to wake up!

Pondering Over: The Way I Loved You, Taylor Swift

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

he's just not that into you

2009-02-15T21:39:00.001+08:00

Have been eyeing on this movie since two months ago, knowing it will be in my to watch list - 19th Feb 09. Was in Wheelock Place this morning, and I ended up reading the whole book when I was supposed to be doing my project... =)
And I was thinking, I may be the best person to write a sequel to this book...
Looking forward to see what's instore for the movieee...

Lesson of The Day: LOVE YOURSELF MORE!

This week's top hit on HY.Billboard!

2009-02-07T10:37:00.009+08:00

HY.Billboard's Top Hit of the Month~!

*drumrolll.....*
My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson!
Love this to the max!Check out the different versions available!

- Original MV
- David Choi's Cover Version
- Nick Pitera duet with AHMIR

Of course Kelly still rocks the most!
(she's too good,YouTube doesnt allow embedding of the MV!)

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

(Chorus)
Cuz we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

(Chorus)

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together now, (yeah yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, (yeah)
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

2009-01-10T02:21:00.003+08:00

Its one of the nights when I start rolling on the bed…
Thinking why am I not asleep when I am just so tired…
Yet still awake because I cant fall asleep ….

Many things are running in this sleepy brain and it is not as sleepy anymore…
Running faster and faster that I don’t even know how to catch up…
Too many things happening… too lil time… aha!
I am starting to sound a lil moody, a lil confused, a lil tensed, a lil emo, a lil deep in thoughts, a lil tired, a lil motivated, a lil hungry, a lil determined, a lil sigh… a lil of everything…a concoction of feelings…

Just another blog post when I just feel like writing and don’t really know what to write…

HAPPY 2009 all!
10th Jan 2009 – ten days into the New Year but not so much into the New Year yet… Its time, its time to start reflecting and start putting my new year resolutions into actions…
Counting down to 5 more days upon completion of my final year project…
Am running out of time…

Listening to: Colbie Caillat's Realize

2008-12-30T01:32:00.004+08:00

And I finally turn 23!
And will be turning 24 in a few days time come 2009.
Some people asked, so how? It's today! Honestly, I don’t know what to expect, I mean, what is there for me to expect right?

And by the way, thankyou for making my day and welcome back!
Thank you for waking me up early in the morning!

Thank you all for the celebration and the well wishes.
Thank you for making me feel so so loved that I will continue to love you all too! :)

Icecream Therapy

2008-12-23T21:36:00.003+08:00

Its amazing how an icecream serving can cheer up the moody and gloomy me all the time!

Although it is just this:

and not this:

Good enough! =)
Have always been a great icecream lover, which explains why it is difficult for me to lose weight, haha!! That aside, thankyou you icecream for being my soulmate today... And me being curious, started to look out more about this amazing delicacy!

Scientists have found that a spoonful of the cold stuff lights up the same pleasure centre in the brain as winning money or listening to your favourite music.
Neuroscientists at the Institute of Psychiatry in London scanned the brains of people eating vanilla ice cream. They found an immediate effect on parts of the brain known to activate when people enjoy themselves; these include the orbitofrontal cortex, the "processing" area at the front of the brain.

Me:But I think I will be happier winning money... haha!Then can buy more icecream! =)

Some interesting facts about Icecream!

~ The most popular flavor of ice cream is Vanilla (Me:Agree!)

~ Ice cream as an industry has an estimated global value of USD 11 billion.
(Me:dont really know how to appreciate the value, but it sounds alot!)

~ The world's top 5 consumers of ice cream in order are: USA, New Zealand, Denmark, Australia, Belgium/Luxembourg. In the USA, July is officially recognised as 'National Ice Cream Month'; designated by President Reagan in 1984, the idea behind it was for people to celebrate the fun in ice cream as well as recognising its nutritious value.(Me: That explains why Americans are... haha! opps, did i just said anything?)

~ One of the major ingredients in ice cream is air. In fact, 10 to 25 percent air is desirable. The ice cream mix must be beaten as it freezes to incorporate air. Without it, ice cream would be rock solid and unscoopable!

~ Biggest ice cream sundae - 12ft tall made with 4,667 gallons of ice cream - California, USA 1985.

~ The best temperature at which to serve ice cream is believed to be 8 degrees F.

To all icecream lovers out there, CHEERS!
Continue loving what you love!!!

2008-12-22T23:41:00.007+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to my all time favourite badminton player - Wong Choon Hann for his recent win over Peter Gade in the Yonex Super Series Masters Finals last friday - rubber game that lasted an hour! It has been awhile since he last played so well, and its good to see small little comeback from him although he is no longer in his top form. Keep it up!

On a side note, exam results will be out tomorrow...Wishie me luck yo! =)
Time really flies especially when you are super occupied...
Lets see what were in line for the month: final year project, choir practices, chingay practices, a lil of Dance Production prep, a lil part-time job, a lil holidays back home and final year project again...

If everything is according to plan, hope to be back home for newyear!

*signing off...and back to finalyearproject*

Latest Christmas Carol for 2008!

2008-12-13T01:17:00.009+08:00

Latest Christmas Carol for 2008!
12 days more to christmas, and caroling practice started today!
I have always loved christmas carols as it brings me joy singing it and am sure to the people listening as well!

Let me share with you, the latest christmas carol of the year!
ENjoy!

Tune: Santa Claus Is Coming to Town!

You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town.

It's hitting you once,
It's hitting you twice
It doesn't care if you've been careful and wise
Recession is coming to town

It's worthless if you've got shares
It's worthless if you've got bonds
It's safe when you've got cash in hand
So keep cash for goodness sake, HEY
You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town!

Finance products are confusing
Finance products are so vague
The banks make you bear the cost of risk

So keep out for goodness sake,OH
You'd better watch out
You'd better not cry
You'd better keep cash
I'm telling you why:
Recession is coming to town.

p/s:
Dear santa... All I want for christmas is all written in the letter I posted to you... I promise I will be good! =)

My fav version of All I Want for Christmas
(by Olivia Olson from Love Actually)

My fav version of Ding Dong Merrily on High!
(by Celtic Woman)
~ a very beautiful version of the song:amazing vocals and music accompaniment,making the whole song sounded so magical and magnificent!~

2008-12-02T15:54:00.004+08:00

Warm Welcome to December!

Finally finished my last paper of the year few hours ago!
Dont think it ended with a bang, but the point is it ENDED.
And the best part is, my favourite month of the year...December is here!!!
Am anticipating a great fun-filled exciting month ahead!

I was actually trying to get some sleep, like a really good beauty sleep (hah!) until our dear grasscutter uncle decided to start his job...
And here I am, trying to enjoy the 'music' coming from him...
And trying to plan how my december is going to look like!

According to plan, I was supposed to be back to the Com Lab now to continue with my final year project.... But then.... Come on.... my finalyearproject needs a rest... So I shall let it rest and start later in the evening... =D
Meeting my prof tomorrow for a review, and time for party tomorrow night!
Will be heading home on the 4th Dec for a couple of days before I head back to SG to finish up my fyp... Am sooo looking forward to be home....

Checklist:
Slack at home, Family Time, Beach + Swim, Retail Therapy, FOOD-I want my hokkien meeeee!, TVB Drama and more movies, Meeting up with buddies and more buddies, Suppers,K-session, Drive + Bike...

Mine, how come the list is getting longer and longer, and to think of it.... I only have less than a week.... Apa macam skarang? Entah la, I'll go figure it out in my dream later...

Because finally our dear grasscutter uncle decided to stop singing....
And ms yap can finally get some beauty sleep.... Yawnz...

Be right back for more updates and plans for the month!
Singing... Rocking around the christmas treeeeeee
Wheeeee!

2008-11-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

Day 001 (continued...)

0900 : The 1st paper of the semester started! EG 2401 Engineering Professionalism!
1100 : And it ended...
1200 : Pizza for lunch! and spring cleaning!
It feels as if we finished the exam cause we were actually cleaning up our rooms... weird, but true... and it feels good cause the room is clean once again! =)
But nah, not the end yet, its just the beginning, and I have 3 more to go until 2nd Dec!

1343 : Here I am trying to waste abit of time before I continue with the mugging...

7th Sem in NUS, second last semester of university...
Never I felt so much for wanting the Asss...
For it is now or never that I could make that difference that meant something...

food for thought: when was the last time you wanted something really badly?

2008-11-22T07:52:00.001+08:00

Day 001...

0125 : Filling up empty spaces in my cheat sheet
0130 : Time for bed
0500 : Tossing on the bed, somehow with the glimpse of the EG2401 Paper in mind...
0630 : Somehow, i woke up... Couldnt continue sleeping
0640 : Head to gym, thought I needed a stretch
0700 : The shower of the day
0710 : Breakfast
0750 : COunting down to 0900...

Wish me luck!
=)

hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia

2008-11-16T19:26:00.003+08:00

If you have fear of long words, you have hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia!
No no, it is not hippopotamus.
Yes yes, this string of 36 letters actually means fear of long words.
Read this from Google's 'Things to Ponder' and indeed, I wonder why use such a long word to mean fear of long words, ironic but true.

So, imagine you have fear for long words, and you go to the doctor/psychiatrist and say, " Dear doctor, I have a problem, I might be suffering from hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia'. Or maybe the doctor telling the patient, ' I believe you are suffering from hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia'...

I mean it doesnt serve the function at all, if the patient itself have fear for long words. Imagine, if I have this problem and I want to find out more about it, but I cant really do so because I believe the word hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia will appear in my research (say Google) and I believe it is long enough to cause fear in me.

Ok, maybe I was just thinking too much, creative thinking you see. Blame it on the exams! Hah! :D

And so I was Google-ing and found this:
Symptomns of Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia
- Irrational fear of long words
- Feeling of panic
- Feeling of terror
- Feeling of dread
- Rapid heartbeat
- Shortness of breath
- Nausea
- Dry mouth
- Trembling
- Anxiety
- Extreme avoidance measures taken

Interesting to know, something new to me and many, but there are indeed people who are suffering from it...

p/s: Perhaps my doctor friends could enlighten me abit...=)
(Muffy! Hehe... )

2008-11-11T09:55:00.006+08:00

Sunset Borderline by Sandi Thom

The song of the week...
A beautiful song to keep me sane in the mugging mode...

A simple scent of summer stole my heart for the last dance
The smell of two-stroke petrol from a motorbike we used to have
Yhose playing fields of cut grass you know high school left me kind of blue
Now with every sweet summer breeze i'll be thinking of you

Now i'm waiting for the sunset borderline
Every suns gotta set with time
But i'll remember those moments for evermore
As the days where nothing had changed at all.

Found a long lost picture of the car we used to run
Cotton candy coloured paintwork looked so faded in the sun
And that 6 o clock sunrise you always used to drive me to
Guess that long lost picture will always have me thinking, have me thinking of you

Now i'm waiting for the sunset borderline
Every suns gotta set with time
But i'll remember those moments for evermore
As the days where nothing had changed at all.

So for every little sad sweet love song that's ever sung, i'll be thinking
And for every lost summers day that ever been and gone, i'll be thinking
I wonder if your gonna be the tear that follows me,
Until that sun is set i guess i'll always be waiting for the sunset borderline
Every suns gotta set with time
But i'll remember those moments for evermore
As the days where nothing had changed at all.

Turned into the radio flicking through the stations one by one
Tried to listen through the rain while
Humming those melodies alone
I remember how you told me Lennon & McCartney
Always pulled you through
So as the music fades out i'll be thinking, I'll be thinking of you

Avenue Q!

2008-11-04T02:57:00.007+08:00

After all the hesitation months ago, considering the economy recession (i mean my personal economy) so it was a NO to Avenue Q....
But a last minute phone call on last sunday at 4pm (for a show at 8pm) made all the difference...
and... oh yes its AVENUE Q! =)

Am glad I watched it cause it was really GREAT and awesome!
Story about Princeton, a bright-eyed college grad who moves to Avenue Q with big dreams and a tiny bank account. Together, he and his newfound neighbors struggle to find jobs, dates, and their ever-elusive purpose in life. Sounds totally familiar...
Couldnt agree more that it was a naughty, tuneful and witty delight!
I still cant stop singing to the soundtracks now!
Got introduced to the songs 4 years ago, and I could really relate to the songs now =)
Do checkout the soundtracks cause its really good, and if you can do catch the show!

A Prelude to Avenue Q!

One of my fav track: Purpose
~I'm gonna find my purpose!~

ENJOY~!

2008-10-18T23:23:00.006+08:00

in loving memory...

i remember posted a picture here, the one with her when we last went sailing together...
that was september 2006... two years ago...
i came to know about her sickness one week ago...
and we have lost her now...
i may not be close to her, but i feel the loss too....

life is indeed fragile, full of unknowns and surprises...
people says things happen for a reason...
experiences make us grow...
i guess in one way or another, it will make people appreciate people around better
not to take your loved ones for granted...
live everyday to the fullest...

it reminded me of this great great lady in my life...

we lost her a week ago...
a great lady whom i really respect for all that she has done for the family
how well she had brought up all her children to become wonderful individuals they are today
i am as always amazed by how the family functions as everyone just knows when to fit in to support and complement one another in any occassion...
am really a proud member of the family...
a simple yet great lady, you inspired me...
i will hold on to all these values you taught me...

and life goes on.....
but you will always be remembered...

listening to: Bye Bye by Mariah Carey
lift your head to the sky cause we will never say bye...

2008-10-10T06:50:00.003+08:00

it has been quite a day and i finally cried. simply cant bring myself to do any other things. the wait to be home is long this time. mixed feelings, as much as I want to be home to give my parents a big big hug, i dont want to be home for this very reason.

dear granny, may you rest in peace...
you will be deeply missed for we've loss a wonderful respectable lady.
and time is still passing by so slowly.

and the evening in the hospital makes me think.
the place is such a meaningful place after all, but people dont talk about it.

a place filled with pain, sorrow, disappointment yet full of love, hope and joy...
a place to witness what life is all about...

midterm break!

2008-09-30T13:33:00.002+08:00

first of all, happy birthday to my dear sista!

hope you will have a great day there, 29th babies rock! =)

interesting trend in the family though, where the few yap gals are all 29th babies...

mere coincidence really.... but we are proud of the so-called-culture... hah!

the few days home was great for me...

catching up with family & friends... catching up with food, driving and penang too!

managed to visit dearest andrine's boy too!

i really missed home, days when i will just lie down on the sofa, yakking on the phone like nobody's business until my mum comes nagging... and days of TVB drama... yummy...

somehow, i can sleep all day long at home without feeling guilty unlike when i am back here...

beezeeyeng: thanks for the company, hope you will land on a super dupper great job soon!

honey tan: great catching up with you, yet again the yakking under ur block in the car... i miss the sitting infront of longkang days! thank you, i will remind myself - one thing at a time... i will try.... and i promise i will not be so 'fan chian'... hope all will be well for you!

ms wee: sorry didnt really managed to spend alot of time with you, karaoke session was great though! same thing, i wish all is well for you too! =)

kahean: my dear grand daughter, i am waiting for your good news!!!

the evening hike

me and my nephew!

the gals!

and more gals!

me and annling

2008-09-21T14:21:00.001+08:00

the flowchart!

and so when i was at the 'anyone to IM' stage...
my friend, by the name of wiki @ kinwee decided to send me this... haha
this is soo sooo true... ;)
check this out!

2008-09-15T04:52:00.002+08:00

woke up early today...
but didnt feel good...
down with flu...
was a lil stressed up with my fyp stuff...
and reluntant to study...

oh well, another concerned friend just brought up the same concern about my personal life...
i really dont mind sharing
but too many in a week seems like a personal attack...
really appreciate it when you all care, really...
but there're only so much i can take, and i need space to breathe too...
am trying to move on...
i thought i was doing well....
until all the memories start haunting me again...
well, its just me...
i know it has been awhile...
am really trying...
and am really sorry my friend, if i have hurt you in anyway...
thank you for being there...

came upon a friend's space today...
and i really felt like going up to her and say... i really feel for you...
for i know exactly what you are going through...
lets just hold our hands together and hope for better days to come.....

and so again, i was surfing the web...
and I came upon this...
Goldin Universe Colorgenics...

And I am pretty amazed...
It says...

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to
cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely
inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all
and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your
thing.

Your willpower and stamina are in danger of being overwhelmed by excessive stress. Your resilience and tenacity have become weakened. You are feeling overtaxed, worn out and getting nowhere: but you continue to stand your ground. You feel that this unfavourable situation is an encumbrance which you could well do without and you find yourself unable to make the necessary decisions at this particular moment in time to change anything.

Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it's just that people can't seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you'll only accept suggestions under duress.
In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back'
attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move
forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy
output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude
is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

well said, it does speak my heart to a certain extend...
there are times when i really feel like giving up...
but i will continue trying no matter what...
will you be with me?

Pirates of Silicon Valley

2008-09-06T13:11:00.001+08:00

Silicon Valley - a big name that I have known since my primary school days, when my Malay Language teacher keeps exaggerating about how great and influential the place is in the area of technological innovations (and how my essay could have been marked better with the inclusion of some knowledge about Silicon Valley: that was the influence of Silicon Valley to me then); it never crossed my mind then that I will have the opportunity to be there one day.

I think I am getting more and more interested in this valley now especially after the trip...

Guess what, in the midst of studying in the library (for less than an hour), suddenly it struck me to watch Pirates of SV!
And there I go headed to the loan desk for the videotape!
Interesting indeed as the story revolves around the beginning of Apple Computer and Microsoft... how the wonderful invention called PCs got started and how it changed the world ever since then! Inspiring indeed...

Steve Jobs to John Sculley
(whom he convinced to be Apple CEO then):
"Do you want to spend the rest of your life selling sugared water to children, or do you want a chance to change the world?"

Somehow, its funny or I would say amazing how the movie really got me interested to find out more about Apple, Microsoft and specifically Steve Jobs & Bill Gates!
maybe having visited the places and knowing a little more about SV could be the reasons, I dont know...
but well, i am convinced, I will bring the 'i' into my life soon! as soon as I have the money... hah!
its only a matter of time!

well, i'll definitely get back there someday in future!

Do watch this interesting movie if you havent!

2008-09-05T02:18:00.001+08:00

(Delayed post)
iLEAD Silicon Valley Study Trip
19th July - 30th July 08

Day 1 in Silicon Valley!

i must admit, the flight was a tiring one. travelling alone was abit boring,and I ended up finishing Heroes Season 2 on the airplane! took me about 24 hours including transit from penang to san jose! transitted at Taipei,and the flight got delayed for about 40 minutes. one thing interesting was that i realised announcements in the Taipei airport was made in hokkien! it does sound weird having heard hokkien being used so officially...hah!

the LA International Airport was really packed and busy, and kind of huge. the weather was fine, quite cold for a summer. about 20 degrees outdoor at night and the wind, it feels like an outdoor AC system.

i was supposed to head to Terminal 7 in LA for my connecting flight and it took me about 15 minutes to walk to the Terminal... pheww...
another hour waiting to check in my baggage, another hour to check in for my flight!
and FINALLY - SILICON VALLEY!!!
for a moment, i really couldnt believe the fact that I am there at Silicon Valley already!

arrived at the placed where I was supposed to be staying, Joe West Hall, San Jose State University at 1.00 am. with the jet lag and all, I managed to sleep for about 4 hours,
woke up about 7.00 am local time and I started to walk around to explore the place...

the rest arrived in the afternoon, went out for a Subway Lunch...
and headed to Mountain View to the NOC Office here...
the night was spent preparing for the visits!

Day 2 in Silicon Valley:
Started the day with a scrumptious breakfast at the hall...
In the agenda we have Mystery Spot and the beaches at Santa Cruz!
let the pictures speak for itself!

The many many days in SV
(hah,no time to break down already...)

founder of meebo, Seth Sternberg - a truly inspiring entrepreneur, an engaging speaker

Stanford University!

me at San Francisco, the Golden Gate Bridge!

me and karen on the Tesla Motor's Roadster! rocks!
(the car is designed to fully run with electric power without fuel! amazing...)

thats me using the cart for disabled in Walmart! finally been there after learning about it in marketing text again and again!

the iLEADERs Eight...

YouTube Office!

and as the background says, it is GOOGLEPLEX!!!

on a whole, the whole study trip has been a fantabulous and inspiring one - having met some of the successful entrepreneurs in SV;
gave us a good perspective and understanding of the entrepreneurial ecosystem in the valley and appreciate why the valley is so exclusive by itself...
truely life changing experience...

and moving on - the Road Trip!

2008-09-04T15:55:00.004+08:00

(Delayed Post)

Post SV Study Trip - Travel USA!
Napa Valley - 31st July 08

the road trip!

Lake Tahoe - 1st Aug 2008
the drive was awesome, although tiring...
beautiful beautiful and again beautiful place...
no words could describe how serene and breathtaking the beaches were...
when we were just so near to the stars...

Death Valley! - enroute to Vegas
another wonderful chapter of the trip...
the drive was crazily hot but it rocks! (with alot of rocks around, hah!)
temperature went up to about 50 plus celcius, imagine!
we were driving without the AC on, for fear of heating up the car....
desert looking place, hot and dry but its BEAUTIFUL!

Las VEGAS (the city that never sleeps!)
(2nd-4th Aug)
and finally, we have reached, LAS VEGAS!
casino + gambling, buffet, shopping, club, drinking, theatre, picture taking....
all checked!

Los Angeles (4th-7th Aug)
and the final destination before we part ways...LA!
LA was abit below expectation though, the downtown LA was practically dead about 7 pm...
area around hollywood and disney were relatively ok...
no disneyland cause we arrived a lil later, universal studios was slightly below expectations...
but the studio tour was awesome!
met up with emma and she brought us round for abit around the hollywood area...
stayed with her for a night before i left for NYC...
it has been great meeting up with you emma!
thank you for bringing us round and for taking care of me!
take care there, hope to see you real soon!

universal studios!

me at the Newport Beach!

Emma and I rolling on the grass in USC!

New York: 8th - 11th Aug 08
After all the trouble, finally stepped my foot on the ground of New York!
Thankful that everything fall into place somehow despite the hesitations and very last minute confirmation, many thanks to ghimhui and george who have been taking care of the homeless me or i could have ended up like the homeless along the road.....
its kind of true when my friend said, you havent been to US if you havent been to NYC!
its just different as compared to the westcoast...
where you really see the city, the settings which are so familiar to the ones you see in movies and the culture, the people, of course the museums!
places like the Wall Street, WTC - ground zero, Statue of Liberty, Times Square, Manhattan, Broadway...blablabla... you name it!
met up with vjliew and friends there too...
newyork has been great despite some disappointment...
i will never forget the night when they decided to change the subway services and how i got lost, how i got so frustrated with myself for not getting the right direction again and again... the journey back all alone late at night in the foreign place... and the shifting of room in the middle of the night...
that was my first night in newyork...

Times Square!

bye bye US! it has been a great great trip~!!!
finally 'the american dream' come true... =)
till we meet again...

2008-08-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

am happy because am going to start dancing soon!
it has been really reallllly awhile since the last dance...
and i am missing it...
am looking forward to it!

listening to: Everytime by A1
(reminds me of my georgian days...i miss those days... )

2008-07-17T08:04:00.000+08:00

its finally over...
the long 7 months that flies like an arrow...
and I am all smiles...
for I won the battle...
the battle against myself...
and for all that, I thank all who have been with me...
throughout this journey...
I really felt very very loved...
thank you...

and there I go...
counting down to Silicon Valley!

2008-07-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

can you smell the air of freedom...
for it is just right there waiting...
awhile more before my final presentation...
i cant wait...

2008-06-28T08:36:00.000+08:00

random blabbering

good morning all...
one of the mornings i woke up craving for mcdonald's breakfast...
i want the hotcakes!
oh well, i remember clearly going to mcdonalds for breakfast during the hols last year... but i guess they decided not to offer breakfast this time round...
i was really looking forward to spending some good time this beautiful morning...
with my hotcakes and hopefully some inspiration will come along for me to write my business case... i have been procrastinating... or rather its the writer's block ( haha...)... the ideas and thoughts are just not coming forth

anyways, i have a great feeling this morning...
so, lets hope this will be a fruitful day!
well, got to resort to kaya lattice from biz canteen and my fav peel fresh mango for breakfast...
not too bad afterall...
guess this is also one of the days when i am actually up in the morning waiting for the library to be open... amazingly amazing...

it has been awhile since i last wrote...
its June 28th this very day...
ask me months ago, i will tell you i really have been looking forward for time to fly, i have been waiting for now to come...
but then again, i kind of hope time will slow down for a lil now...
i have been jus occupied and occupied...
i hate to use the word busy though, it doesnt sound good especially when people start to associate it with me... "you've always been busy..."
haha, i choose to differ, completely...
and I AM NOT A WORKAHOLIC...
i play hard too...i laugh even harded...=)
hahahaha...
its all a matter of choice i guess, its your life, and its all up to you on how you want to live it... i do find it tiring at times, when i just dont feel like doing anything... but its worthwhile for all the self-satisfaction gained...
wondering why am i blabbering all these...

anyways, work is ending in 2 weeks time,pile of reports dueing...
US trip coming, but planning still not done... and i havent decided...
havent been helping rag, although i wish i could...
havent touched the drum for awhile... last yoga was months ago...
havent been spending more time at home...
and fyp is starting soon...
running out of time...
but i guess everything will jus fall in place somehow...

listening to : David Cook's version of Always be My Baby...
time cant erase a feeling this strong...

hmmm... its time to start work!

2008-05-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

the day when i finally lost my phone...
yupe, the day finally came... never ever thought I would have lost my phone in my office, but well it happened! the second time in the year that i've lost something valueable...well done ms yap!
looking at the brighter side, it means that I will have a new phone soon!
but that means I will have to work harder to save up at the same time...
pheww... anyone needs a maid, personal assistant etc??? i need a part time job! hah... guess, retail helps in a way or another...(yes, before it hit me that I am supposed to be savinggg uppp...)
i did my fastest shopping ever on this very day too! call it impulse buying perhaps!

the phone...
it was about a year ago when i got it new...
to a certain extend, it meant something to me, the sentimental value of the phone...
it reminds me of all that has happened the pass one year...
the photos... the songs... the messages...the contacts!
sometimes i wonder if it signifies anything...
as i have been thinking about a year ago for the pass few days...
listening to lene's one year ago...
wondering what was i doing,
what was i thinking this very day a year ago...

as i walked back from work...
as i walked pass the foyer...
as i walked back to my room...
the setting of vacation stay...
the people i see along the way...
one year ago feels like yesterday...

look back with no regrets...
look forward with hope and dreams...
tomorrow will be a better day!
good night!

2008-05-20T17:24:00.000+08:00

fantabulous penang!

the trip back home was great, and i am sort of glad i survive the so called crazy weekend i anticipated...
granny's birthday, dad's birthday, meeting the georgian girls, bringing the eusoffian girls experience penang, food!, jumpseat back to singapore!, data entry for work, first draft for business case... all checked!
sweet! =)

2008-05-02T10:17:00.000+08:00

yoohoo! its May Day!!!
and I am finally done with Sem 6 in NUS!
good day to rest and relax after the crazy semester... =)

not that I am finally free cause I still have to work and fulfill my other 16 MCs from iLEAD... but well, at least school is done for the sem...
expectation from work is definitely going to be more, hopefully I dont screw up...
and I can start planning for my US trip already!something I look forward to...
which also means I must go into intensive saving plans already...
anyone wants to donate to Ms Yap's Charity Fund?... haha...

i guess this is one of the most relaxed exam week I've ever had in NUS...
whereby I can still afford to watch two freaking awesome movies...
well,I just hope I will do averagely better for the two modules...
post HR paper was Harold & Kumar! and post TR paper was Ironman!!!
please watch them if you havent... two thumbs up really!
(plus toes also... haha)
anyways, I kind of like this poem from Harold & Kumar...
The Square Root of 3...Enjoy!!!

The Square Root of 3 by Dave Feinberg

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

2008-04-21T09:30:00.000+08:00

thankful that i met you

this shall be the song of the week...
ms yap who is supposed to be studying has been busy watching drama for the past 3 days!
it started off on thursday, which I think was my worst day at work thus far...
screwed up big time... didnt have any mood to do anything at all the whole night...
and i decided, time for TVB drama! finished war of in laws 2 in 3 days!
personally i find pleasure in watching TVB drama although most of the time, the plot is quite predictable... it makes me smile at the end of the day seeing the happy ending of each story...

感激遇到你 [War of In-Laws 2] - Myolie Wu & Bosco Wong:
Thankful That I Met You

This is love; promising to love you with all my heart
Destined to walk simultaneously with you, rushing into the sea of love

Bosco:
Who is the one I love most
Loving you wholeheartedly
Having you, each day is so wonderful

M+B:
Being with you forever, will only love you hereafter
Being moved by you forever, will cause me to recollect the pleasant feeling each day
Cherishing is like seasoning
Able to maintain [this feeling], so it will engrave on my memory
Loving you has taught me to be happy for a century

Oh, Baby, I love you I’ll love you every day
Being moved by you forever, will cause me to recollect the pleasant feeling each day
Cherishing is like seasoning
Able to maintain [this feeling], so it will engrave on my memory

Loving you has taught me to be happy for a century
Grateful to have met you

Myolie:
You are the only one I am passionately in love with
Have agreed to happily share bed and blanket hereafter
Bosco:
Who loves me dearly
Loving me wholeheartedly
Causing me to be happy; it’s so obvious

2008-04-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

It is such a beautiful and peaceful Sunday morning…
Guess it is my mind…
It feels good to be up in the morning today…listening to my fav songs…
Doing a lil self reflection….
Time flies and the Sunday is here again... so is April!
Past two week has been busy busy…
With assignments and report datelines to meet + work…
Well, my trip home was great, and the most fantastic part was when I was offered a JUMPSEAT for my flight back to Singapore!!!
(because the flight is full… haha, thanks dad!!!)
Which means, I GET TO SIT IN A COCKPIT and experience the whole flying experience just right behind the PILOTs!!!
The experience was just AMAZING! Like I was telling my friends, I would have really considered being a pilot if I experience this so much earlier in life…
Next in the list, flying license! Haha, if I ever have the money…
Which reminds me of the money lost!
Damn… i wonder which ‘friend’ of mine is soo nice to help me keep and spend my money… such an amazing friend I have…
Well, anyone wanna donate to my charity fund?...
Kindly drop me a message here…. Hah!

Well, the weekend has been great….
had a great time yesterday…
with the karaoke session and the shopping spree!
Thanks ruichin &welly! theI2M girls!
not really a shopping spree actually, but i am proud to say that i jus added another pair of shoe to my collection of white-shoes! perfect!
had the first TGIF for ileaders on friday...
it was a blast! =)
looking forward to learn and have fun together!
we will make sure ilead rocks too!
I am soo looking to the SV trip…

-the ileaders-

I shall prepare for my yoga class soon!
Have a nice day all and SMILE!

-peace out-

2008-03-22T07:54:00.000+08:00

another airport day!

oh well, i think this is another blog post on airport day! written at the airport itself!
well done! maybe the equation should read: airport day = blogging day!
i woke up abit later than planned, so was in quite a rush this morning to pack my stuff and all...
so there i go headed to the airport, waiting patiently, hoping to get a seat for the next flight at 11.00 am to Penang... finally, this helpful lady waved at me at 10.45 am telling me the good news...
"hey girl, you are very lucky! i managed to get you a place! faster get your ticket and you are good to go!"...

yay! the happy me, went all the way to the ticketing counter to get my ticket processed and all...
then the lady said, " girl, may i have you passport please?"...
and suddenly, i realised... I FREAKING FORGOT TO BRING MY PASSPORT ALONG!!!
all i could do is to say sorry to the lady, and head all the way back to NUS to get my passport....
and travelled back to Changi again!
will only be able to get a place at 5.25 pm....
yes, damn screwed up! to add on, the rude email i got this morning and the thought of possibly losing SGD600 jus doesnt make things any better...

oh well, so here i am sitting in Mcdonalds in Changi, writing my paper... and now writing this...
thank god i made the right decision to bring my laptop along... i nearly didnt want to bring it along this time....

anyways, nothing will dampen the excitement of looking forward to be home!!!
i will be home for the weekend, hoping to go through my sis' uni app and stuff...catch up with family and friends! and food of course! =)
huiying will tell you more about the new Penang under DAP soon!
ok, i shall head for my flight now!

2008-03-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

it was late and she got to wake him up...
this kind soul dropped her off where she will be heading home...
she said goodbye, with a rub on the head...
he called when she was back home... she smiled...
and soon she had to leave home...
heading back to where she came home from...

at where she stood today....
she saw herself coming down from the bus...
she sat at the bus stop waiting for another bus...
travelled towards her destination...
looking forward to surpise him...

and she wonders why is this still so fresh in her mind...
it feels like yesterday...
she smiled yet again...

2008-03-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

work has been interesting for the pass few days as my work requires me to travel around singapore for some outlet studies... there goes me and my best friend:the street-directory...
haha, i think my streetdirectory skill improved alot already, really!!!... and my mandarin speaking ability too!.... =)

and i jus extended my white collection by getting a new pair of white shoe...
damn, i think i am cursed...the white-shoe curse...hehe

in fact everything white actually... =)

the election is happening this saturday
have been trying to keep myself updated with the political happenings back at home...
all the propagandas...the blogs...the youtube vids...

like the hope of many, i just hope to see a change for a better malaysia...

the place i proudly call home, although i may not like how some things are in msia...

sigh...i dont get to vote this time round cause i was late for registration!
i am a responsible citizen you know... haha
talking about election, i really feel like sharing this...

this is my damn happening aunt!

and my dear friend...
its was good to hear from you...
thanks for making my day...
my heart smiled... =)

2008-03-01T15:57:00.001+08:00

the leap day...

well, its the 29th of february!
it happens only once every four years,and i was wondering what should i do today to celebrate it...
it was raining in the morning, in fact i realised it is the first morning that it rained ever since i started working...
it was friday, and i was happy because the weekend is here again!
had an interview in pgp, visited waynie who is down with chic pox...
and had a wonderful music sharing and singing session with dear manyan...

2008-02-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

am glad the weekend is here again...
time for me to relax and unwind a lil...
chingay ended last week...
and i cant deny the experience was great!
the experience of being a paparatzi...squeezing with the rest of the professional photographer trying catch a snapshot of the PM, Gurmit Singh etc...
the Red Bull F1 car! the engine sounds so loud it filled the whole atmosphere of the City Hall...i love it! if only i can drive it!!! =)
the sheares float doesnt look so magnificent after all, other than the very detailed detailings...
well, it does reminds me of rag...
quite a number of the raggers were there, inspired to bring their float to chingay next year... i wish them luck!

ihg jus ended yesterday, we were crowned the overall champ!
but the crowd at SRC were a lil pathetic i must say...
we dont look like we are celebrating the win in a way...

but anyways, the minum session tonight was good, thks jit and elf!
today is caffein consumption day!
it has been awhile...
alrighty, i shall go to bed, the dragonboating session is tmr! (today actually)
makeup for the previous one that i missed!
=)

2008-02-12T17:09:00.000+08:00

the '08 CNY...

to think of it, its my 22nd CNY...
the routine has been about the same for the pass few years,
the places I go, the relatives I visit, the friends I meet...
but i am still loving it to the max...especially this year...
because it is the time, when everyone make it a point to get together to catch up with one another...
i am happy to be home, and i miss home now...
i managed to get home on time for the reunion dinner...
the yaps had a full gathering this year, and i am sure alot of them are happy about it especially my granny...

the turnout for georgian's getogether was awesome, its great seeing all you girls again...although we are all heading different lives now, we still clicked like it was yesterday when we were still running around the school with our red shorts...
i miss sggs... the topmaids, i mean my guiding sisters managed to meet up too with a few people missing...i miss girlguiding too...

and this time when we met, we talked about those days...
those days when we were younger...
i wonder how things will be after another 10 years...
hmmm,i think most of them will come with their kids... calling me auntie! haha...
how i wish things will always be the same...

2008-02-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

DP just ended …
Everything went on well… the show was great…
Everyone was satisfied with the outcome of their hardwork…
Be it the cast, the dancers, the setters, the wardrobers, the marketers…
Seeing how much DP meant to them makes me happy…
I miss dancing, it has been awhile since the last dance...
I think i will make it a point to do it next year...
Afterall, its my final year...
At the same time I do feel out of place given my portfolio as a treasurer…
Not here… not there although I tried to appear here and there to help…
I know its not enough…
But what someone told me hurts me most…
I wasn’t angry, but disappointed…
Perhaps i shouldnt have agreed in the first place...
Guess its quite true the saying… in work, don’t tell me how hard you worked; tell me how much you achieved…

And they spoke about our dear friend,mr vijay liew!
They miss you… and I believe you miss them too…
Its amazing how you made your presence felt here although you were away…
Take care my friend!

And chinese new year's coming!
Cant wait to go home...
Its jus that I cant have extra leave to stay longer in penang... =(
Looking forward to be home and the reunion too!

I miss shopping for chinese new year...
I miss the atmosphere of preparing for cny...

Happy Chinese New Year folks!
Wishing all a great year ahead!

2008-01-11T09:23:00.000+08:00

New Year... New Look!

As a gesture to welcome 2008, I have decided to get my blog a new look! yay! and as part of my new year resolution, I will try to update this blog more often, making it a point to only blog here and not everywhere else...have more happy thoughts... and write less emo stuff here...

Welcome to this lil corner of mine... and SMILE!

2008-01-09T15:30:00.000+08:00

just wanted to say thank you again...
really appreciate the company and the fast-speed shopping...
looking back, the same thing happened when i was rushing to get a gift for a friend who was leaving say... 4 years ago...
somethings jus happened again and it kept me thinking...
why the conincidence... i wonder...
=)

2008-01-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

It has been a great day…
Thanks for the company…
Food was awesome!
Dan in Real Life was good…

It has been awhile…

2008-01-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

looking back 2007...

Jan 2007:

Started the year at the penang water sports centre after the countdown! A place that I personally love alot! We had the Georgian girls around as well as some bgx-ians and the family. I really enjoy spending time with you all… School got started and second half of jcrc work kicked in… there goes IHG… DP…finance… and finance… and MAD kicked in too! I guess time passes by fast when you are just sooo occupied… there goes the sleepless nights etc… I was still staying with my roomie then…. I do miss the times having you around dear roomie… I miss all the chats and laughter we used to have late at night on our own beds…

New Year Countdown Party at Water Sports Centre

Feb 2007:

Come February, come DP and Chinese New Year back at home! Then it was time for Make a Difference (MAD) interviews, SRB, selection, induction…. Meeting with NYC etc… It gives me great pleasure to run MAD… the satisfaction gained from being able to make a difference in other’s life although it is not me myself being there… I enjoyed the learning and sharing… I love the ever positive and encouraging AIESECers… one think I regretted most is not being able to give my best due to other commitments, I know this can run better…

Chinese New Year back at home with my cousin sisters!

March 2007:

School became more intense…I got myself busy and busier … good in a way, cause it keeps my mind off some other things… then come hall’s Dinner & Dance… then come me, hesitating to do rag… wondering how I should spend the coming 3 months holiday… fickle minded me! Sometimes, I really hate myself for being so indecisive… in the end, I gave in… yupe, I am doing it again! yay!

Eusoff Dinner&Dance - 19th JCRC

April 2007:

Can’t really remember anything significant other than the exam! Well, quite significant indeed… I mean the exam… and the days and nights in the library… and the coffee drinking… and counting down to exam!

May 2007:

Exams ended and holidays got started… I remember myself being quite frustrated with the fact that I am still stuck in Singapore when everyone else is enjoying their holidays, back at home… I started questioning myself, what the hell am I doing here when everyone else cant be bothered…enough being said, but it is worth it after all… the self satisfaction knowing it was a right decision made afterall… oh, and how can I ever forget me meeting my idol, wong choon hann!!! Peter gade… taufik… lindan… boonsak… cai yun… haifeng… oh mine, the world class badminton players!!! thanks to one of my friends for the free passes! That I get to spend four days at the indoor stadium for Singapore AVIVA Open… And well, rag got started towards the end of the month… well, a lot of things were uncertain then… and I personally wasn’t sure how far we can go… but with faith it went on…

Singapore AVIVA Open!
Me and my all time fav - wong choon hann!

June 2007:

Family trip to bangkok! it was indeed a good break for me... but, my dear sister lost my dear camera in bangkok... phew... that was my dear camera i bought with my salary lor... sigh...
well, came back.... continued with rag... and I started working already then… started working with sakura on the weekends, then started office work in Tanjong Pagar and telemarketing with prudential… juggling between work and rag was really crazy, but am proud to say, I survived it! Haha… those were the sleepless nights… and I felt sorry to the team for not being there all the time… well I don’t have a choice though, I just needed to work…

Family Trip to Bangkok

July 2007:

Full swing into rag… no more working… some things didn’t go as smooth as we thought it would be… some things turn out fine… some things turn out to be out of expectation…
but the whole EHOC experience was great… thanks EHOCers, especially raggers for all the wonderful memories… there are some things I didn’t see it coming; I didn’t realize it happening... but it was …

Aug 2007:

Final lap towards rag… I am jus very glad and thankful for all the help and support from people who cared… well, what kept me going is the people, the raggers… and against all odds, we managed to survive this and am proud to say, we brought the shield back with one of the smallest team… I fulfilled what I wanted to end my jcrc term with … and school got started, but most of us were still suffering from post-rag syndrome… trying to live life without rag… I do miss rag… I miss spending time with each and every one of you… I miss running against time during touch-ups, the adrenaline rush and satisfaction after the real performance… the excitement seeing the shuttle frame being lifted after posing!... it makes me happy seeing the foyer lights on… seeing people in the foyer… other work kicked in, jcrc term was ending, there goes clearing up the bits and pieces… settling post rag matters… I was a lil emo then, when all these piled up together with some other matters of the heart… i was really tired and... sorry if i had annoyed you in anyway... 18th Aug! I had my hair-cut… short! It has been awhile since I last had it short…. About three to four years ago… it feels good having a change, hoping that things will change for the better… =)… AGM happened, and the 19th jcrc term officially ended… I will miss working with you all! spending the long hours in jcrc room, became a PR for awhile …staring at the clock waiting for meetings to end… having to explain what CPG is to mr cleo again and again… having mr president reminding me to cancel the taxi/bus/mrt again and again…. the small girly chats with szephing and pearl, having to fine our dear benny for every f-word said… seeing c pearl (ok! and myself) getting red after Malibu, thanks to benny... jit and his recording of the anthem (I still have it!)… hongwei and his zero tolerance for CAPS… oh ya, benny, thanks for the bbq!

That was the float during static display!

Me & my dear daughter,sopphia...with my new hair cut

Sept 2007:

School work piling up as usual… trying to juggle with other hall stuff… trying to get more personal time for myself… dance classes started… was back at home for mid-term break… happy birthday sister! Sorry, have to leave on your birthday itself… 20th jcrc investiture happened... and it was one year ago when we were there! haha, how time flies... 20th JCRC Investiture

Oct - Nov 07:

These two months passed by real fast… school work… assignments… projects…and projects…and there goes spending nights in forum and engine, E5 particularly…bazaar and bazaar preparation… thanks all for the help and support!... and my role as the fin sect officially ended… then come preparing for the exam… and library time! found a new place to study as well… the arts canteen, burger king corner!.. thanks radioactive gals for the wonderful study week! Lol… yea, ‘wonderful’… then come the exam to end the month!...

the radioactive gals at the central forum!
and below we have lab group w14 under the shower!

Dec 2007:

Yay, its december! I bet I have said this many many times all my live, but I will still say it, I LOVE DECEMBER!… oh well, I am a baby capricorn… =)
Exam ended… and we celebrated! was then finishing the gift… dad and sis came over for holidays…

Dad & Sis in Singapore!

then come AIESEC NLDS…nlds was great! enlightening and inspiring… its great seeing some of you again…a good time for me to do a lil self reflection...
AIESEC NLDS 07 : AIESEC in NUS

then come the trip to welly’s place with fellow class mates!... Tanjung Batu, South of Sumatra, (if I got it right from wiki)…thanks princess welly for the wonderful hospitality!... was also keh-leh-fehing for the film… and I started my attachment for a few days before xmas… choir practices and choir practices… had a great shopping spree with ms wellyana… and come Christmas! I love xmas and I love xmas carols… we were then caroling at mandarin oriental hotel… then come boxing day! Which also means results day!... mood was so-so… my cap improved by a very very small bit… and I got my first A+ in NUS! Thanks to my lab groupies for the wonderful group work… and we celebrated too! Haha… was also a farewell for the two brother wongs who are leaving for SEP… and its time to go home after xmas… it always feels good to be home… busy catching up with family and friends… the long night chats… the shopping spree… the makan sessions… then come my 22nd! well, I am getting not-so-young… thanks all for the wishes… thank you for remembering and thank you for the message… you made my day…=)
i was hoping and still waiting ... but i know i should just forget it...
and then come new year! time to make new year resolutions!
i have got a few...and its now the matter of keeping to it!
had a simple getogether at my place to welcome the new year!
the year with 366 days!

Me in Indonesia with Welly & Classmates!

EH CHoir: Christmas Carolling at Mandarin Oriental!

Boxing Day-26th Dec! Lab Group outing celebrating the lab results!
yay! Earthquake Day!

and I turn 22! thanks ppl for the getogether!
great seeing you gals!

New Year Countdown at my place! with family and friends! welcome 2008!

wow, this is a damn long post i know...
but a meaningful one...it took me a few days to lay down the happenenings in 2007...
there were ups and downs... but it was a great year indeed...
thanks all for making my year a great one...
i anticipate 2008 to be greater since i have additional one day!

2007-12-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

directionless, i am...really cant believe that i actually sat at the mrt station for nearly half an hour, went halfway downtown... and decided to come back...
because i couldnt decide whether i should go...
oh yes,you loser... damn fickle-minded!
well, in the end i decided... i am sorry,am not going...
i am jus tired and jaded...

my heart was smiling when i see you teaching the kids...
it was all happy thoughts... =)
and am finally done with the gift...

2007-10-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

tony leung!
tonight ms yap drove the *** out to vivocity for Lust, Caution!
yea, call me daring... sometimes, I cant deny that fact...haha
the fickled minded us in the end decided to watch the movie...
but tony leung was jus awesome in the show...
his acting jus got better over the years...
his charm and his charisma jus shines...
good show indeed!

thanks berry, welly and rc!
had a great girl's night out!

2007-09-01T23:42:00.001+08:00

I am an ENFP...
this really says quite abit about me... but i dont think i break hearts la...
haha, ask my friends about my story telling skill...
oh, the part about how people sees me is soo sooo true... =)

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!
In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.
At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.
How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding
When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's" Your Personality Type?

2007-08-21T14:32:00.000+08:00

my new hair cut!
On this fine evening, I decided after contemplating for sometime whether or not to cut my hair… and have it short! I went in and … tadaa…!
Kind of like it, and I really hope this new hair cut marks a new beginning in my life…

2007-08-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

i am missing rag too...

after reading the post in goldfishnemo, i realised...
its just different...i felt so much more for rag this time round, something that i didnt expect myself to feel so much for... and i know deep down, all raggers feel the same... i am proud to say, at the end of the day I have no regrets about this... although the journey was bumpy...its that self satisfaction that really counts...i can still remember how 'high' did i get after the performance itself, that i was screaming all the way as i was walking along the roadside with meichee...

i guess its partly because of the many things that I have been through for rag, the many tears and laughter...the ups and downs... and at the end of the day, the shield that makes the whole journey seems so beautiful and complete... that i really missed it... and i know it's because of you and you...
its the people, its the raggers...
thank you all for giving me this wonderful memories...

the video of cher elfie and the phone jus makes my day... =)

2007-08-18T10:03:00.000+08:00

Thank you…

For being there whenever I broke down into tears…
For your shoulder when I needed support…
I never expected you to walk into my life as such…
But now I know it has happened…
When every little thing I do or see reminds me of you…
When every single song I hear seems like telling my story…
When all I wish for is for you to be happy…

And the silence says it all...
No one to be blamed, but I am disappointed...
Not with myself, but with you...

go choonhann! all the way!

2007-05-04T10:20:00.002+08:00

had a really long day, was awake till 6 this morning! was watching 'secretly in love with you' again while doing my work till i didnt realise it was that 'early'... haha, so went to bed then till about 9.. its amazing how i could wake up at
9 plus jus like that like any ordinary day... =)

i was anticipating today, cause i will get to see wongchoonhann play LIVE... haha, i have been his fan since sometime ago... not that he's been a very great player but he is such a charismatic player... jus like seeing him play... and it really made my day to have seen him... haha, i was busy eyeing on him throughout the match... and real glad he won his match, which means i will get to see him in action in quarters and all... and he's the only malaysian men singles left in action... so, wish him all the best! it will be great if he could win tmr's match, all the way choonhann!

i went weilee who has 2 VIP passes, which means that I get to sit at VIP seat for free... lol... jus my luck... a better view of course! haha, the match between taufik and peter gade was jus great... undeniable they are both very talented, but guess peter gade is really in his good form...his every shot was jus, beautiful... lol... lindan was there too... real glad to have seen these star players live...
will be goin tmr with roomie to watch the quarter... haha, hoping to snap a pic with choonhann...

but then again, my worries came when my friend started talking bout exam, cant he jus forget bout it since its holiday already. phew, i cant forget about it too, especially the last paper. i knew it was easy... and i am real worried because i didnt finish the paper... now i jus hope i dont fail the paper... and the other papers too, they were relatively easier and i am worried that i will do badly, i dont know why... probably it was because of last sem, when the Cs start appearing, it freaks me out... i dont want anymore of them...

and as i was asked about rag, it reminded me about something that i have to decide real soon. i jus told him bout my sentiments for rag that i didnt tell anyone yet. i am tired, but at the same time, i do care for rag. its jus that there isnt anything driving me to do it now other than the fact that there isnt anyone else coming forward to lead the team.

2007-04-25T08:01:00.000+08:00

Every other people are having their exam now, free from work, free from all these extra worries, but I have to deal with all these all alone!!!
Now I hate my job….
Can’t he read invoices properly? I shall take over his job man… Give me a break can?
What the hell, in the midst of exam frustration I still need to deal with all these nonsensical people, who only finds me when there are trouble to get me to cover!!!
Phew…. Channeling my frustration now…
Study study….

2007-01-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

A piece from SVH, written by Elizabeth supposedly…with a lil modification

Your Silence

I sit in your silence, scared
Waiting patiently for recognition

For a word
For a breath
For a touch

But I am raw

Because I watch your hands instead of writing
And listen for your breath instead of breathing

It’s strange,
How close to you I feel
Yet at times
I feel so distant

It's strange,
the need I have
To help you
To be there for you
To make you smile

And yet I’m sitting here,
Waiting…
For you to let me in…

Talking bout, SVH... i actually went to the state library to borrow some books and watch one of the movie that is in my to-watch list, Down With Love... watched the preview once, and got quite attracted to the settings... and was jus thinking, what should i do today... and there i go, headed to the library... and june called not long after, she must be wondering what the hell am i doing in the library during the holidays! lol... kahkheng said i am kiasu ... haha,i am definitely not...

2006-12-30T15:34:00.001+08:00

i turn 21...

Yay, birthday post! Huiying turned 21!!!… my birthday wish, is to be able to celebrate with all my loved ones… my mum,dad,granny,sister and friends… people close to my heart… well, partially came true, I was contented…thank you all! Some unexpected wishes jus brighten my day… its great to hear from them…

Well, talking bout celebration… am goin to have a december party in two days time, yay! New Year @ post Christmas @ December babies’ celebration…. Kind of a reunion for all also… looking forward to it… yay, its going to be at the water sports centre! I just love the place so much…=) I just hope people will turn up…

Girl, cheers! You are 21!

2006-12-14T07:03:00.000+08:00

airport day...

Am writing this at the airport because I am bored… Pheww… todays is just not my day… My occasional rashes came… believe it or not, i am allergic to air-cond... haha... I didn’t managed to get a seat for the flight back to Penang, well I am actually on standby as I am using a staff ticket… so, there it goes, risking a chance, but it never occurs to me that there isn’t seats available at all, hence I guess today is just the day… Guess it lightens up the day a little by helping others… again, I was the photographer of the day… don’t deny, small gestures can go a long way… I helped two mums to snap a picture with their daughters on two different occasions… it really lightens up my day to see the joy of both the mother and daughter looking at the picture taken…satisfaction I guess…. Oh, plus the friendly staffs at the airport, who helped to reroute my ticket from Sg-Pg to Sg-KL-Pg… She is just so friendly, so motherly to be accurate from the way she talks to me. She must be a great mother! Somehow, the whole scene reminds me of Triumph in the Skies, one of my favorite TVB Drama. The storyline revolves around the airport and the staffs, which includes good looking pilots, beautiful air stewardess… haha…liked the show, cause somehow, I am a person who believes in fate & destiny to a certain extend, I believe things happen for a reason … call me naïve, and I don’t deny sometimes I do get that naïve, which at the end of the day puts me into so much thinking and trouble… guess that’s one of the reason this drama captures my heart. I also came to realize that this is more of a girl’s thing... haha, by the way I have always have this impression that working in the airport will be an interesting experience… daddy’s influence perhaps?... ahaha Haaachiewwww….. there I go sneezing…. And somehow, when I needed a pen, I don’t have one around me. I have always; if possible carry a pen around me… Talking about being prepared…. ahhh, I failed terribly today…and I also came to realize that I only have RM 0.40 with me!!!... so I am going to survive in KLIA, with RM 0.40, which will be used to make a call back home…. Oh mine, everything is just not going as planned today… interesting you may call it… Anyways, another discovery of the day.. Changi doesn’t have free WIFI access but KLIA has!!! Wow, at this point of time, I am just so proud of KLIA…haha, that’s how I can get this posted! Lol… alright, I got to go get the ticket I guess… Am always looking forward to be home…

out in the sea...

2006-09-25T10:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm... am out in the sea sailing today... =)
real glad that i was asked along, i was seriously very tired and sleepy cause i havent been resting enough, and as a result i ended up sleeping on the boat... haha.. i even got sea sick,and vomitted actually... sorry fishes...it rained too, but it was a great experience out in the sea... my second sailing experience =)
i just love the sea... guess i will pick up one of the sea sports anytime soon... cant wait... hmmm, windsurfing, diving, sailing.... hmmm.....

my first morning jog in NUS

2006-03-21T00:32:00.001+08:00

hmmm, woke up about 6.50 am this morning thanks to the blood-sucking creature, whom I have donated my blood to. but i feel good to be up this morning.
and i just have the sudden urge to go for a jog and I did!
very well, my first morning jog in NUS, haha! but i enjoyed it, the green trees, the fresh air, the morning breeze, very refreshing indeed... good day i hope... :)

a lil reflection of 2005...

2006-01-06T21:36:00.002+08:00

There goes my first masterpiece of the year!

1.03 am, 6th Jan 2006:I am supposed to be sleeping now, with the flu pills I had, but I wonder why, it didn’t work out the way it was supposed to be… hahaha, so here I am…plus plus plus, I am really very happy today…

First of all, it’s always great to be home… and I managed to meet up with a lot of my friends today, all looking great & gorgeous. Yupe, just came back from Andrine's wedding dinner. There it goes, my very first friend to get married. I am very happy for her, that she has found her happiness although some may think that it's a lil too early at this age, but why not look at the positive side of things??? hate it when ppl start to say things and speculate things... wishing her joy and happiness always...girl, if you happen to read this, I just wanna say I am really happy for you, and I am proud of you too!... as for the rest of us, i bet all had a great time together, catching up and of course took lots of pictures… haha, with some ‘sane’ gurls singing SGGS school song in the car, brownsea island, guiding friendship… imagine… how fun~! The conclusion: it was of course great! “ As we go on… we remember… all the times we… had together….And as our live change… come whatever… we will still be… friends forever….”

june,suemay,huiying,leeli,chin,wenting, jo,kahean,sheali,laiyeng,andrine,ann... love you girls!

I was actually listening to Graduation, by Vitamin C just now… when I have this sudden urge to write...a song which reminds me a lot of school; the great times I had in SGGS, makes me reflect a lot on my life, the people around me; my family and friends… I am at the right timing now that 2005 had ended, and welcome 2006 !, still not too late la , jus the 6th day of 2006 only… A time of reflection, resolution and renewal. A time of sharing, with family and friends. A time for wishes, for what is to come. * quoted from somewhere la, which I find it quite ngam* And well…There goes 2005, indeed a colourful and meaningful year for me…let’s see how far I can go reflecting on the happenings of the year….the good ones, and the not-so-good ones

Jan '05:-

Happy 2005. January, a lot of my friends have already started working by then. As for me, I was preparing for the Juliette Low Seminar in Pax Lodge,London UK. Real grateful to be given this opportunity.I love the place so much that I promised myself I will return there one day. Was very excited as well cause it was my first winter experience... it was freaking cold, but what a waste, it didn't snow. I had a great experience there, one of the highlights in my guiding life. Met a lot of inspiring people from all over the world ( these ppl really showed me what it takes to make a difference), learnt a lot and the most important thing, the friendship made… have been quite occupied with some guiding activities, hanging out with friends and spending time with family of course; throughout the month as well as for the few months to come… come to think of it, this might be one of the longest holiday in my whole life (at least until now), should really make good use of it

February '05:-

Still a lil occupied with some guiding activities, travelled to KL twice I think for GG Summit 2005… Guild’s dinner was in Feb then also... I started working part-time at V-Care optics (with waiyi), learnt a lot also especially about this invention called spectacles, everything seems new to me as I am not familiar with it, hehe (hopefully I won’t need it in many year to come).

CNY, time to getogether with family and friends… we managed to had a reunion (or should I say farewell party) at mein’s place before she left for Aussie, well again, its really great to catch up with the rest… I can still remember, 25th Feb: my dearest Lucky met an accident and left us just like that. I was really sad then, moreover he died over such a sad way. He was with us since I was in Primary 5 I think. My dear was like part of my family, my best friend, one that i always go to when i am feeling down and now, he’s gone… i miss his cute look whenever i patted him... he was getting blind then, but took me a few days to get over it, may he rest in peace…I remembered that day well enough cause it was the night before I started my work with IDP Education ( how meaningful right?)… Went to work with my eye a lil swollen…and it was the Star Education Fair, imagine…

March '05:-

Andrine’s birthday party at Tanjung Club… hmmm… another good chance to getogether and have fun~! Although we are all no longer schoolmates, we still share a very strong bond (hopefully in years to come as well), I really value this friendship. To all my friends out there, thanks for being around!

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. (Elisabeth Foley)

And then, release of results, STPM results…after all the speculations of dates, it finally came… haha, we even told one another to go in red, the school colour…how nice. Some smiling with a sense of satisfaction, some surprised, some in tears, some disappointed... I guess it didn’t really matter that much now, it’s the journey that matters most. I’m personally very satisfied with what I’ve got, real thankful and happy, just that from this moment on, the time will come for all of us to part and start another new path of our lives. I will miss school life… my life as a Georgian…and then, university applications, everyone is so busy and excited with it then: attending talks, which course to choose, what’s the pointer, which uni to choose… bla bla bla…

April '05:-
Started teaching tuition for hostel girls, quite a nice experience though, now that I really understand the hardship to be a teacher, it’s really not easy to be a teacher… believe me, really… hahaha.... my respect to all the teachers out there… was busy with the planning and organizing of the upcoming guild’s camp at end of May… i think went to KL with vern, phaik & stella under the Youth Council trip... another free trip, hehe... the most interesting spot was the MB of Selangor's House, he actually invited the whole group of us to his house for dinner... hmm, of course impressed with his house, its at the hilltop kie... and he seems like a family man... a loving daddy at least... was quite impressed with Putrajaya as well then...
May '05 :-

May... hmm, i was still teaching then.. cant really remember anything significant... May 05, oh ya, my daddy's birthday.... i guess once in a while meeting up with friends... was working partime during pc fairs as well, for Streamyx....and then the Guild's camp, had a great time during the camp, afterall it has been sometime since we last camped together.... the whole bunch of crazy girls ( the TOP MAIDs)...and ya ... it was the time when i was busy with uni application stuff and all... I had my ASEAN scholarship interview then as well.....

June '05:-

well, the party.. was busy for a few days with the party... preparation and all... Melissa’s birthday party cum our farewell party at the Penang Water Sports Centre… hmm, great one, managed to get a lot of ppl to turn up… guess no where beats the Water Sports Centre, indeed an ideal place for lil kids like us to play and run around, watch sunrise, canoe,play at the beach,fly kite, barbeque,play scrabble,play cards, MaFIa... play UNO, stay up the night... chat, play and laugh all night… worth the effort =) looking forward to the next one...

July '05:-

My cute floormat!

mum and dad at changi airport!

Early July, results of uni application was realeased. And I think we have about one week to prepare and go, so practically everyone was busy shopping, preparing document etc to get ready for school; ok uni.... i feel excited for them as well...and i was also getting busy with them as well... and as for me, I have gotten the offer from NUS, and to my pleasure with the scholarship as well... after much thought, well here I am now, in NUS... it was then time for real farewell, now that everyone will be leading a different path of their life, some will still be around the hometown, some leaving home, starting life anew somewhere else… each will be facing new challenges in life…oh ya, i got my braces removed too... tadaa.... reached Singapore on the 18th July, my parents came along too =) … well, gonna start anew here, there goes adapting, exploring new places and knowing new friends, keeping in touch with family and old friends, missing home, missing school life… missing friends…Orientation period; had fun of course…kind of impressed with the facilities here and the way things are done here, kind of systematic to a certain extend. There’s this “rag competition” here which reminds me a lot of the times when we ‘pia’ for camp, overniting, staying up to finish up comps, all those things we used to cut and paste…

NUS Rag Day 2005...

This is my room in Eusoff Hall!

Aug '05 - Nov'05:-

Classes started… assignments, tutorials, datelines and exams... it's seriously darn competitive here... sigh... the scene especially during the study week is damn scary, you can see ppl studying at every corner of the uni kind of thing... hello, get a life!... of course you have no choice, but to join in the crowd, but I am jus an amateur in mugging ler, kenot fight with them...ok then the holiday/break in between...i managed to go back twice i think i between the semester.... it is REALLY GREAT to be home...and not forgotten ECAs, hall activities and all the extras la… of course they were some nice experiences, nice people I’ve met along the way, and those not-so-nice ones. Glad to be able to keep in touch with my friends and still connect well when we meet during my semester break.

Good friends do not always have to be together; It is the feeling of oneness when distant that proves a lasting friendship.

(Susan P. Schultz)

at holland village for laksa!

Dec '05:-

I have this special affection for the month of December, I’ve always love December. I guess it’s because this is the time when I was born into this beautiful world… haha, but well, December is also the time for holidays, and festive celebrations, the time to celebrate and party after working hard all year long…the time to reflect on the year past and contemplate the year ahead. Started the month well, with a visit from Laiyeng. She came over to Singapore for a holiday, with me of course (haha), stayed with me in my hostel for about one week …and then I went back to Penang…. 18th Dec: Peiwen’s bbq party…laiyeng’s bday surprise… haha, the pandan chiffon cake… release of my first semester results, well I didn’t do very well, as I’ve expected… need to work harder the next sem I guess. 25th Dec, Christmas…It turned up to be better than what I've expected... Initially I was supposed to be back for Christmas, my day and New Year... but due to other commitments and the arrangement to attend a meaningful wedding, just have to sacrifice that... Stella and sis came over for a holiday. I managed to meet up with them for xmas… met my SGGS juniors: menglin, chearcheah and yuanpin at the mrt station…. Wat a small world...

me& stella... orchard for christmas...

then, come my big day, 29th Dec...the day when I officially turned 20... well, its was just like another ordinary day, nothing special though. .. celebrated my day all alone... a lil disappointed though,sad to say it's one of my worst birthday... I wish I was back home then… but I am really grateful for all the wishes, calls and messages that came in from family n friends… glad to have met you on that day… all I wished for was just a birthday wish, but it didn’t come, guess you didn’t remember…then I continued living the last few days of 2005..... spent my new year’s eve with Berenice, we went to Bugis, then Esplanade… it was damn crowded, practically at every corner; the shopping complexes, food outlets, MRT stations bla bla bla, but I enjoyed myself… Thanks for the company Berenice!... the fireworks at Esplanade were simply awesome.* The waters of Marina Bay come alive with the play of light as thousands of wishes set the bay aglow against the spectacular backdrop of the city skyline. And at midnight, the night sky turns into a canvas of colours with breathtaking fireworks display and united as one, we welcome the new year and the promise of a better tomorrow *And finally, there comes 2006. Wishing all a wonderful year ahead. As for me… of course I hope for the same as well, hope to discover my path along the way. Looking forward to the celebrations and getogether in a few days time… read this somewhere, guess it does make some sense:-

"The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and

something to hope for.”

Again, I wish all the people around me joy and happiness always, I am glad to be blessed with all the wonderful people around me, thanks for being there…Counting my blessings and be thankful…

Well, enough of reflecting and time to move on… time for me to go to bed….
Yeah~!wow, didnt realise it's this long... looks like my personal logbook now... haha...

-peace-

my personal logbook...

2005-10-04T10:22:00.000+08:00

as the title says, the girl guide's way, my personal logbook...haha... very well, my very first entry... an attempt to shift from writing in my dear diary to typing perhaps... this shall me a place for babycapri to cry, laugh, scream... and express herself... and crap too! thats what she does best... ahaha...a place for herself and maybe people close to her...